I am lovable just as I am right now.

I have been dating. Not seriously dating but I have gone on some dates since January. I find the biggest thing for me is to just be myself and not be impatient or rush things. I have found in the past if I like someone I tend to overcompensate by texting or emailing or making the first move in communication when I should just let it be.I think I am too forward and rush things. I end up probably pushing away guys because they think I'm clingy. I on the other hand think I know what I want. I want a man, not a boy. A man who will pursue me. I want someone who is kind, caring, conciderate, compassionate, thoughtful, goal oriented, has the same priorities as me, sensual, sexy, respectful, loving...an equal partner. Someone who reflects who I am but also brings out the best in me. I need to set healthy boundaries and not get my own needs ignored. I want to know that I am not the only one making the effort. It starts at the beginning. I have asked friends advice on dating since I haven't dated in about a decade! And it feels pretty strange to me. I find I get nervous, an upset stomach, my hands get cold, my knee's get weak I worry about what to wear, how to dress, too much cleavage, not enough then they don't find me attractive, too much and I'm easy, not too doudy but some style. Not too much jewelry, how do I wear my hair? then I realize I am overreacting way too much. I have to talk to myself down and say "Pull yourself together, it's just a fucking date. You are going to be o.k. whether it goes well or not". So I asked my friends "what do I do, should I call etc" Some say no - never call, wait for his move and others say ya, call, be yourself. Lots of advice but at the end of the day like I said I have to be myself, get out there, get exposed (so to speak)Practice makes perfect! I have just learned about this 3 day rule?? Wtf is with that? I have done my homework on eharmony website to learn more about "successful dating" etc. Like remembering men and woman date at different pace. Men take it slow initally after they make contact or have a first date before they get serious. Who knew?